Half Birthday...

Today Nathan turned 6 1/2. And I was in a BAD mood all day. I can't stand the fact that he is growing SO fast.

I need to get over it. I obviously have no control over that.

I think it's mixed with the fact that so many changes will come our way this fall when he attends school FULL time. Without me all day. For like 7 hours. Without me. ALL DAY.

So as he played in the sand box at the public pool... I fought back tears ALL day. And some of them even came down - luckily behind my sunglasses. And as I sat there, I tried to be thankful for:

* The baby skin he still has.
* He still holds my hand on occasion.
* He lets me hold him (on occasion).
* He still believes in kisses.
* He lets me pinch his cute buns.
* He spells out, "I L-O-V-E Y-O-U M-O-S-T-E-S-T" several times an hour.
* Sometimes he wants to come home in the middle of a sleep over.
* He thinks I'm funny... and a little "woo-hoo"
* He still cuddles with us in bed.
* He believes my kisses on his "owie's" make them feel better.
* He still has his blankie.
* He loves our undivided attention.
* He still waves at me from the outfield. And he always looks back at me when he's batting... to make sure his mama is watching!

And then I silently prayed. I prayed that I would get a stronger heart. That God will know what's best for this mommy that's having a REALLY hard time at letting go.